“Мом, open my closet. Don’t tell Dad.”
For a moment, Jenna did not understand the first word. Then she realized it was Mom, typed or written with a Cyrillic-looking letter, the way Miles sometimes joked online when he wanted to make ordinary words look like secret code.
Open my closet.
Don’t tell Dad.
Jenna folded the note and pressed it against her chest.
Across the hall, she saw Caleb standing near the vending machines, his back to her, speaking into his phone. His shoulders were tense. His voice was too low to hear. When he turned and saw Jenna looking, he ended the call immediately.
That was the moment the fear inside her changed shape.
Until then, she had been afraid for Miles.
Now, she was afraid of what Miles had known.
By evening, Caleb had returned to the room. His eyes were red, but his face had settled into an unreadable mask.
“You should go home,” he told Jenna. “Shower. Sleep for an hour. I’ll stay.”
“No.”
“Jenna, you’re exhausted.”
“So are you.”
He looked at Miles, then away.
“I can’t help him by standing here.”
Something in the sentence made Jenna’s skin prickle.
She waited until after midnight, when Caleb finally sank into the chair by the window and fell asleep with his chin against his chest. She sat for another twenty minutes, watching him breathe, wondering when the man she married had become someone she could not read.
Then she kissed Miles’s hand, tucked the folded note into her pocket, and left the hospital.
The drive home felt longer than the drive there.
The house was dark when she arrived. The kitchen still smelled faintly of sugar and smoke. One tray of cookies sat where she had abandoned it. Their edges had gone dry. The icing in the bowl had hardened into a dull white skin.
Jenna climbed the stairs slowly.
Every step creaked beneath her feet.
Miles’s bedroom door was half open.
She pushed it with two fingers.
The room looked ordinary, and that was the cruelest part. His unmade bed. A sweatshirt on the floor. A math book open on the desk. A half-empty glass of water on the nightstand. Sneakers kicked in opposite directions as if he would come back any second and complain that she was touching his stuff.
The closet door was closed.
Jenna stood before it, unable to move.
She remembered Miles at six, hiding inside that closet during games of hide-and-seek, giggling behind winter coats. She remembered him at ten, stuffing a broken lamp in there because he thought she would not notice. She remembered him last year, finally asking for hangers instead of letting every shirt live on the floor.
Open my closet.
Don’t tell Dad.
Jenna reached for the knob.
Her hand shook so violently that she missed it the first time.
The second time, she turned it.
The closet door opened with a soft wooden groan.
A cardboard box tipped forward and fell at her feet.
Photos spilled across the floor.
So did printed messages. A cracked phone. Two flash drives. A black notebook. And one sealed envelope with MOM written on it in thick, dark letters.
But Jenna barely saw those at first.
Because pinned to the back wall of the closet was a photograph.
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