from the camera app after Wren came home. She lived twenty minutes away and liked to peek at the feed during her coffee breaks or late at night. “I’m not stalking you,” she said. “I just miss the baby.” I laughed and let her keep access.
On the thirteenth night, the house was quiet except for the television. Daniel had a bowl of pistachios on his lap and some police procedural muttering through the speakers. Wren was asleep in the bassinet by the couch. I pushed myself out of the recliner to warm a bottle and immediately felt a violent drop inside my body, as if a trapdoor had opened beneath my hips. My legs gave way. I hit the floor so hard my teeth snapped together. Wren woke and began to cry.
I said Daniel’s name once. Then again, louder. He turned toward me with irritation already settled on his face. “I can’t feel my legs,” I said. “Please get her.” He stared at me for a long second, and I remember noticing ridiculous details—the salt on his fingertips, the crease in the couch cushion, the blue light from the television sliding across his cheek. Then he leaned back and said, “Naomi, enough. You are not doing this tonight.” He picked up the remote and turned the volume higher.
I never forgot that sound. The click of the remote. The sudden swell of canned dialogue over our daughter’s crying. It told me everything I needed to know. Not that he didn’t understand. Not that he was confused. He was choosing inconvenience over compassion in real time. I stopped begging. I planted my palms on the floor and dragged myself forward. My legs trailed behind me uselessly. Each pull sent lightning through my spine. Wren’s cries rose sharper, thinner, more panicked. Somewhere behind me, Daniel went very still.
The distance from recliner to bassinet was maybe eight feet. It felt endless. I passed the coffee table, a fallen burp cloth, one tiny yellow sock. By the time I reached the bassinet, my elbows were raw and my breath was breaking into ragged little gasps. I hooked one arm over the edge and pulled myself high enough to touch Wren’s chest. She was warm and furious and safe. I put my hand over her belly and whispered nonsense until her cry dropped from terror to outrage. Only then did I hear the front door shaking under someone’s fist.
Daniel stood up at once. Of course he did. By the time he reached the entry, Nora was already inside with two paramedics close behind her, coat half-zipped, hair loose, face white with rage. The motion alert from the camera had hit her phone at 11:47. She had opened it expecting to see Wren stretch in her sleep and instead saw me collapse and start crawling. She called me, then Daniel, then 911, then drove like a maniac to our house. Daniel tried to talk over her. “It’s postpartum anxiety,” he said. “She scared herself.” Nora held up her phone. “No,” she said. “I saw what you did.”
The paramedics moved fast. One checked sensation in my feet. One asked how long the weakness had been happening. Daniel started to answer and the older medic cut him off with a look so sharp